Category Archives: Baby Loss

Here I am

Posted on January 24, 2022 by Mrs. Spit

So, here I am. Deep in the land of requirements, of stakeholder engagement, of explaining business needs to software developers. Here I am, leading a project to build a knowledge base for perinatal services. Here I am, sitting through the … Continue reading →

Posted in Baby Loss, Life After Children | 3 Comments

Between the Lilac and the Birch

Posted on May 11, 2021 by Mrs. Spit

The first spring, when my mum and I stood on my crappy back deck and looked out over a wasteland that was supposed to be my back yard . . . . There was a lilac. It was somewhere between … Continue reading →

Posted in Baby Loss, Gabriel | 3 Comments

Places You Can’t Go

Posted on December 10, 2020 by Mrs. Spit

It is 3 am on December 10th, and I am awake. Waking up to worry is a near constant part of the pandemic, the stress of my job, perhaps even my nature. Usually I can sleep until 4 am. I … Continue reading →

Posted in Baby Loss, Gabriel | 8 Comments

Women Like Me

Posted on August 22, 2020 by Mrs. Spit

Today is Rainbow Baby Day. Now, perhaps if I had a baby that lived after Gabriel I might be more of a fan, although I don’t think so. (This is a good time for an aside. I think for some … Continue reading →

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Not Me

Posted on August 4, 2020 by Mrs. Spit

I’ve been on a few dates with a guy. We’ll call him Mr. Ice Cream. (Yes, dating during a pandemic is weird.) He was at my house last night, eating dinner. In the corner of my dining room is a … Continue reading →

Posted in Adult Dating, Baby Loss, Pandemic | 4 Comments

It Passes

Posted on May 11, 2020 by Mrs. Spit

The day passed. It was harder than many: it was cold and rainy, with the sort of overnight temperatures that make planting bedding plants unwise. The garden I spread my mum’s ashes in remains closed, so I could not go … Continue reading →

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What does a Mother Look Like

Posted on May 10, 2019 by Mrs. Spit

Thus far, a flower store I often use sent me a reminder about flowers. West Jet told me what my mother most wanted was a trip (I’d say she took her final and perpetual vacation in December of 2014, but … Continue reading →

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Need Help

Posted on May 2, 2019 by Mrs. Spit

When I wrote about the break in, I told all of you that I would order a replacement bracelet for Gabe. Except I can’t. the website still exists, but repeated inquiries and requests have gone unanswered. So I did a … Continue reading →

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Carry you With Me

Posted on April 11, 2019 by Mrs. Spit

I tell people that politics is a family sport. My grandfather, my mother, me. I apparently (I don’t remember this) door knocked in my first election when I was 5. I don’t remember the first one, but I remember many … Continue reading →

Posted in Baby Loss, Gabriel | 5 Comments

Three Reasons

Posted on January 25, 2019 by Mrs. Spit

There were three reasons for the second dram of scotch tonight (which might yet turn into a 3rd dram). I could tell you about the contract negotiations that have consumed most of my waking hours since Jan 7th, but frankly … Continue reading →

Posted in Baby Loss, Flying with Warthog Air | 2 Comments