Category Archives: Baby Loss

Syncopation

Back when I used to sing in choirs, occasionally in the alto line you would wind up providing syncopation to the soprano line. Syncopation is one of those 5 dollar words that means throwing something off kilter  in music, quite … Continue reading

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Mother’s Day

Mostly it’s just another Sunday. Another day of finishing some work for next week, packing a suitcase, cooking dinner, cheering on a niece and cleaning out the cat litter Until that moment I stop: I pull out Gabe’s scrapbook. Flip … Continue reading

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These Moments

I am sitting in a plane, in business class and I happen to be chatting to the man sitting next to me. His wife is 13 weeks pregnant and has not stopped barfing. I know from barfing when you are … Continue reading

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The Old Year Ends

I’ve been cleaning out cupboards and shelves in the last few days, trying to find all of the places that things get squirreled away, hidden. The deep and dark corners of an old house, where you put things, and then … Continue reading

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Keeping Tune

It gave me pause, that status update. There is, of course, no word to describe a parent that loses a child. Just like, in the end, there are no words to fully describe the loss of anyone you love. There … Continue reading

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Faint Hope Clause

“No truth can cure the sorrow we feel from losing a loved one. No truth, no sincerity, no strength, no kindness can cure that sorrow. All we can do is see it through to the end and learn something from … Continue reading

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Standing In the Way

I am thankful, on days like this, that the school across from my house is closed. I am thankful I didn’t stand on my front porch at 8:30 yesterday morning and watch the children streaming into the school. I didn’t … Continue reading

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Right Where I am – 5 years, 6 months and 10 days

In the last few weeks two young women I know have had babies. One was a part of my youth group when I used to be a youth minister and one was the very first editor I hired for the … Continue reading

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onward

I lay in bed this morning and thought about the last time I was in San Diego and tried to remember what I might have been knitting. There was no particular reason for this line of thought, it was the … Continue reading

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Ruined

Dear Crash and Mars: It was a tragic sort of weekend as you said on the radio. A young woman, about to be married was killed at a Jeep demonstration. A young man ran into traffic and was struck and … Continue reading

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