Category Archives: Baby Loss

And So I Lied

Posted on March 7, 2017 by Mrs. Spit

She wasn’t prying. I’m in a medical situation, getting a drug, and she had to ask about my past medical history. Pre-eclampsia, with long-term minor kidney damage and very mild hypertension, the fact they gave me a ton of blood, … Continue reading →

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Letting Go

Posted on March 9, 2016 by Mrs. Spit

The City of Edmonton has approved backyard chicken coops. If you are me, this is of interest because you have this image of yourself: Wearing a long skirt (that I don’t own), a gauzy cotton blouse (that I also don’t … Continue reading →

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Options Analysis

Posted on January 19, 2016 by Mrs. Spit

Perhaps it was the whiplash. I grabbed a tea with a friend yesterday at lunch and Gabriel and his death came up. The article – the whiplash as it were – was from a study reported in a national paper. The … Continue reading →

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Spring Thaw

Posted on October 16, 2015 by Mrs. Spit

(For context, I realize that October is National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Month, and the day is observed on October 15. I have had very mixed feelings about the social media comments I have seen and have struggled to articulate … Continue reading →

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Weak in the Knees

Posted on March 31, 2015 by Mrs. Spit

Get off the elevator, turn right. The door is in the corner. Turn the handle and open it. Walk into that waiting room.  Or just stand in front of the door, looking at the list of names. Trying to breath … Continue reading →

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Moonlight on Oceans – Redux

Posted on March 23, 2015 by Mrs. Spit

My life has been so much like the rocks on the beach, almost drowning as the ocean washes over me each time. It has been an exhausting struggle to put one foot in front of the other. Tonight, I stood … Continue reading →

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12 Minutes

Posted on February 18, 2015 by Mrs. Spit

On Sunday I was having a conversation with someone, and I walked away because it felt like it was turning a bit into the pain olympics. The reality is that I know that I can win the pain olympics, at … Continue reading →

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Can Come to any Good

Posted on December 2, 2014 by Mrs. Spit

7 years ago today I went into the hospital for what might have been called a routine test based on a minor concern. My blood pressure was a bit high. If I remember anything, when I think back, I remember … Continue reading →

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Bucket List

Posted on September 2, 2014 by Mrs. Spit

After I was diagnosed with MS, everyone kept asking me what was on the bucket list for me, what I needed to do sooner rather than later. . . And I had no answers. I’ve never really kept one. I … Continue reading →

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A Dreadful Weightlessness

Posted on August 26, 2014 by Mrs. Spit

It’s the sort of comment that is so carelessly thrown out and it floats in the air weightless. If it finds a weakness, it sinks in at that spot, driving where it finds deep into the ground. Most of the … Continue reading →

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