Category Archives: Baby Loss

Moonlight on Oceans – Redux

Posted on March 23, 2015 by Mrs. Spit

My life has been so much like the rocks on the beach, almost drowning as the ocean washes over me each time. It has been an exhausting struggle to put one foot in front of the other. Tonight, I stood … Continue reading →

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12 Minutes

Posted on February 18, 2015 by Mrs. Spit

On Sunday I was having a conversation with someone, and I walked away because it felt like it was turning a bit into the pain olympics. The reality is that I know that I can win the pain olympics, at … Continue reading →

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Can Come to any Good

Posted on December 2, 2014 by Mrs. Spit

7 years ago today I went into the hospital for what might have been called a routine test based on a minor concern. My blood pressure was a bit high. If I remember anything, when I think back, I remember … Continue reading →

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Bucket List

Posted on September 2, 2014 by Mrs. Spit

After I was diagnosed with MS, everyone kept asking me what was on the bucket list for me, what I needed to do sooner rather than later. . . And I had no answers. I’ve never really kept one. I … Continue reading →

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A Dreadful Weightlessness

Posted on August 26, 2014 by Mrs. Spit

It’s the sort of comment that is so carelessly thrown out and it floats in the air weightless. If it finds a weakness, it sinks in at that spot, driving where it finds deep into the ground. Most of the … Continue reading →

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Syncopation

Posted on July 3, 2014 by Mrs. Spit

Back when I used to sing in choirs, occasionally in the alto line you would wind up providing syncopation to the soprano line. Syncopation is one of those 5 dollar words that means throwing something off kilter  in music, quite … Continue reading →

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Mother’s Day

Posted on May 11, 2014 by Mrs. Spit

Mostly it’s just another Sunday. Another day of finishing some work for next week, packing a suitcase, cooking dinner, cheering on a niece and cleaning out the cat litter Until that moment I stop: I pull out Gabe’s scrapbook. Flip … Continue reading →

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These Moments

Posted on January 31, 2014 by Mrs. Spit

I am sitting in a plane, in business class and I happen to be chatting to the man sitting next to me. His wife is 13 weeks pregnant and has not stopped barfing. I know from barfing when you are … Continue reading →

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The Old Year Ends

Posted on December 31, 2013 by Mrs. Spit

I’ve been cleaning out cupboards and shelves in the last few days, trying to find all of the places that things get squirreled away, hidden. The deep and dark corners of an old house, where you put things, and then … Continue reading →

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Keeping Tune

Posted on October 17, 2013 by Mrs. Spit

It gave me pause, that status update. There is, of course, no word to describe a parent that loses a child. Just like, in the end, there are no words to fully describe the loss of anyone you love. There … Continue reading →

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