Category Archives: Learning Life

Past Tense

I remember this discussion with Kuri years ago where we she commented that if she really wanted to learn astro-physics, she figured she could. I am like that too. I flunked calculus twice. I really believe, in my heart of … Continue reading

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The Mark of Adulthood

After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul and you learn love doesn’t mean leaning and company doesn’t always mean security. And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts and presents … Continue reading

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In a Darkened Room

My new massage therapist is so gentle. The odd bit of pressure. That’s all. I grew up with the idea of pain for your own good. Pain was inflicted upon me until I was too old for it. Which was … Continue reading

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Nice and Sweet

I had a conversation last night where someone told me I was sweet for doing something. For the record, the thing I did was, well, I guess it was sweet. It’s the sort of thing that if I said “hey, … Continue reading

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Untethered

I was cooking dinner when I realized it – with my mother gone and my son gone, I feel untethered. I am not actually untethered. I have a spouse, a house, bills, a job, friends, family. I am very much … Continue reading

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A Slightly Different Approach

Last night’s run was a big increase in interval time. The last interval was rough. Long. Tough. Grind doesn’t seem quite the word. Brutal is more accurate. Perhaps some of you came from families where kindness was a way of life. … Continue reading

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Deus Ex Machina

My therapist said that when I was upset, worried, angry, stuck on something, it was worth asking myself what I needed. I lay in bed, I sit on the couch, I run on the treadmill and I ask what I need. … Continue reading

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Stretched Past Home

She has a rare disease – the connective tissues in her body are breaking down like a garment that has been stretched so much it can’t return to normal size. It’s like she can’t return to home, she says. She … Continue reading

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Another Suitcase in Another Hall

The suitcase and the boxes on the front lawn. Parents and a mistress screaming. You hid in the front closet, the one they had locked you in for 2 days. This time you felt safe there. (Another Suitcase in Another … Continue reading

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Remember you are Dust

The thing I love about Ash Wednesday is the stunning simplicity of it. Remember you are dust, and to dust you shall return.  You started from it, you will spend your life surrounded by it, and at the end of … Continue reading

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