The Last Watch

In the end, it’s just her and I. In a darkened ICU room, as the sun sets.

I reach over every so often to soothe her – she is restless, but mostly now I just sit beside the bed, rubbing her hand.

We journeyed so long, so far, both together and apart. Her illness took her to places that I couldn’t fathom and couldn’t go. But, this. I can do this. This is your last job as a daughter, the last fealty you owe someone, whatever you thought of them.

We have ended treatment, removed tubes. I am waiting for people to come and say goodbye, I have made phone calls, the chaplain and I read the prayers for the dying, and now I sit and watch.

She opens her eyes, stares at me, but she does not recognize me.  The journey has already started. I am simply here to bear witness. She taught me that no one is ever born alone, and no one should die alone. I will stay watching the very last of journey’s, until she is at the end. I will send my prayers for peace and a lack of pain. I pray that she is not frightened. That some part of her knows she is not alone. That she will not be alone for a moment. I will be here, and then in the words of my faith, that glorious company of angels will sing her home.



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8 Responses to The Last Watch

  1. Alexicographer says:

    I am so sorry for your loss. I’m glad you were able to be with her.

  2. Gloria says:

    You are in my thoughts. Much strength as you wait at your mother’s bedside and at the same time remembering Gabe.

  3. Needles says:

    Thinking of you and praying for peace and ease for both of you.

  4. Linds says:

    Sending love and abiding with you. Many heavy feelings for you lately my friend. 🙁

  5. Kinsey says:

    Thinking of you!

  6. Maureen says:

    You are in my thoughts and prayers.

  7. a says:

    Thinking of you…

  8. loribeth says:

    I’m glad you were able to be there with her at the end. <3

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