I meant to write an interesting post about how one of the things that I like about the corporate culture I work in is the time we give to thought. To leaning back in a chair and saying “ok, let’s just think this through”. That was so much not part of my life at my old job. No one thought about anything, even things that clearly required thought.
Yesterday was a document review sort of day. It was a day of building a 4 slide powerpoint presentation for some high level executives, thinking about what they needed to know and the best way of showing that to them. I spent a lot of time leaning back in my chair and thinking. I had this photo, with my shoes up on my desk, that is sort of the epitome of thinking. I meant to write about how much I enjoyed the leisure to think. To brainstorm. To consider scenario’s and options.
I got home last night drained. It was a good day, but it was definitely a day where everyone wanted something from me. I got home and I wanted to continue thinking, but I wanted to be able to do it in my own time, to control my response rate.
I am always thinking, if I am honest. There are always several things running through my mind. Some are utterly mundane – things like is there cheese and some are about solving client problems and some are about things I have to do and some are about things I have read and some are about people.
I find that I am slower to speak now, and more than that, my first thoughts aren’t fully formed. I want to listen more, understand things like context and connection and feelings and emotions. That takes time. You can’t rush those thoughts.