And So I Lied

She wasn’t prying. I’m in a medical situation, getting a drug, and she had to ask about my past medical history. Pre-eclampsia, with long-term minor kidney damage and very mild hypertension, the fact they gave me a ton of blood, my platelets crashed, that matters when you are getting a monoclonal therapy.

She’s 21 weeks pregnant.

We went through the history. She asked if my baby is ok now.

I lied.

I told her that he was fine and staying with his dad this week.

There is no need for general confession. It was a lie, I know that. I suppose it was a sin, but it was a kindness too.

All the same, I lied about someone I loved. For all the right reasons.

Forgive me.

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4 Responses to And So I Lied

  1. a says:

    Understandable, but unnecessary. It’s not always up to you to protect other people…especially those in medicine who know what’s possible.

  2. Jane says:

    Sometimes, brutal honesty is just too brutal.


  3. Debby Hornburg says:

    You have a good and insightful heart.

  4. loribeth says:

    I probably would have done the same.

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